As of this morning, Alan has started his new chemo treatment. The medicine is called Afinitor, but it also goes by the name "RAD". It is a mTOR inhibitor, so they say it works a little different than the Sutent...different pathways to fight the cancer. Like I said previously, he will have to watch his diet mostly with the red meat, some dairy and apparently shellfish...no fried foods! He will also be doing the pulmonary function test monthly and cholesterol test monthly and sending in blood work weekly. We are still not sure about the side effects, some they mentioned were shortness of breath, fatigue, chemical pneumonia. I'm not sure about the hair loss. Really we just don't know, so it's a wait and see thing. It's pretty funny at the moment b/c his hair is coming back almost black. He never lost his hair, but it did turn white. His mustache and gote are coming back red, but the hair on his head looks to be black...weird. He has been off the Sutent for about 6 weeks now. So, here we go...the new chapter begins.
It's time for me to vent...I don't do this much b/c I have complete faith in our good Lord, but I'm tired of this. I'm tired of Alan being down, I'm tired of fighting with cancer for almost a year now, I'm tired of having to leave my kids to go to Houston (even though they are in the best hands and we are going to the best place), I'm sad that the Sutent didn't work. Do you know how it feels to think you are completely on the right path and then be told it's not working. You really just think in your heart it's working and that's it.. I'm tired of putting my guard down...that won't happen again. So obviously, I'm tired of alot of things and I'm sure I could go on, but I'm not...I think that's enough.
We love you all so much and even though I've vented to my blogging world, I'm going to get through this...we all are. You know, you just have to vent every once in a while. I have no idea who all reads this, but if you have been in my situation, then you know what I'm talking about. It's hard, no matter the circumstances...it's hard. Please Lord, heal Alan. We do not know your plans for him, but we pray it is complete healing.
Thank you to everyone for your continued support and love. I also want to thank many dear friends and family friends for your support with the jewelry show. You know who you are and you know what I mean. You have no idea how much that meant to Alan and I!!